Last year was really fun for me; I was able to travel a lot, experience new things and meet new people. I was excited about 2016 and made plans to do so much more. The new year come and “boom!” I started feeling sick. Then, I found out that I was pregnant!
Being pregnant at 38 was not something I expected to happen; in fact, it was the last thing on my mind. I thought, “I wasn’t expecting this now, so do I put my dreams on hold?” Back in the day, I would have decided it wasn’t time for me to have a baby and have taken matters into my own hands. But, I had grown to the point to believe if something happens, it is meant to be, so who am I to change the course that God has given me.
I thought about the ups and downs of being pregnant: morning sickness, mood swings and being tired. I realized there was no way I could keep up with my schedule while pregnant: I am a wife, mother, business owner and budding speaker. So, I decided to put everything on hold until after I delivered the baby.
I started feeling excited about the baby and telling everyone, “By the way, I’m pregnant.” Then, I entered my 11th week, and it happened. I was working and felt some leakage in my dress; I immediately went to the bathroom and saw I was bleeding. I packed up my stuff, went to the ER and was told that a heartbeat couldn’t be detected, so I needed to make an appointment with my doctor. When I visited my doctor, I was given a sonogram and told, “There has been no movement for the past 6 weeks; I’m sorry, your baby has passed.” That was it; pregnancy over.
Sometimes, we look at things and ask, “Why now? Why me?” Through this experience, I learned things happen to cause us to see the big picture sometimes. I reassessed my priorities and goals through my unexpected pregnancy then losing the baby. The reality is nothing happens by accident. Though you feel unanticipated things happen at the wrong time and may stop your dreams, accept the reality of the situation and remain still before making a decision.
What situation are you questioning in your life right now that you can choose to embrace?